Twenty-second of December, a year ago.

It will be another blue Christmas, start from tomorrow. Will you realize?

Baby, you light up my world like nobody else ♥

Kinda in love with them.

TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT ❤

Happy Sweet 22nd Birthday 
to my fave girl ever ;)
Stay sweet and awesome!
Thanks for teaching me to be fearless. You are beautiful and very talented. Be blessed always for the beautiful melodies from your heart that you bring to us :')
MUCH LOVE <3

Taylor Alison Gardner Finlay Kingsley Swift

Here are Taylor's newest songs. Check it out!
1.  Ours
2. If This Was a Movie
3. Superman

-Mich-

Last Friday Night :)

So heeey. Super late post :P
I'm gonna tell you all about my last friday afternoon exactly :) with these fellas

BOBBY HIZKIA

I call him 'Lautner' but yeah whatever :P
Last friday night he ate Chicken Mozarella(bold italic underline. yikes o_o) and he sat in front of me. Eating with so much joy like seriously while I'm waiting my freakin lame steak to come. He's a good boy though. We've been in the same grade from 7 to 8. GO visit his page here :) Bobby Hizkia

HANDY 

Haha! So this is Handy. He ordered ayam saus mentega but sadly it's out of stock that day :P so he just ordered fried rice :) fastest food that come. Yikes. Makes me even more hungry. By the way, he's searchin some kind of Christmas gift for his GF :3 sweet, isn't he?

AMELIA PERMATASARI

Sooo this is my sweety-cutie-smartie little daughter :3 ordering the same food as Bobby. Those-are-delicious. I know her since 7 grade and yeah we're in the same class again now :) she just cut her hair :3 still cute, eh? But I kinda miss your long hair sweetie, but never mind ;) hope you enjoyed our last friday afternoon together dear! Relax and take a break 

<3

We watched Machine Gun Preacher good moral values movie. Although the beginning some kind of..........okay just watch it :P I'm not telling you

having the best time with you guys. we should hang up again, eh? Gonna miss everyone for Christmas holiday is coming :')

Unintended

What a great Friday with 3 fellas (: gonna post some pictures and details about today maybe tomorrow afternoon haha.

Okay it is 10:41PM when I'm writing this, between dizziness and insomnia awaits. fyi: I bought a very creepy book titled "13 Reasons Why", it does creep me out. Ouch.

I think I should sleep now, my mom just came inside my room and as fast as I could try to put my phone on the table. Gotcha. She saw me and ask me to sleep.

Well, seriously sorry mom, if you were in my age, you'll understand why I'm staying awake at night.

Dear boy who--maybe--accidentally appear in my mind. I think of you these nights, automatically. Cute, eh? (': (for you who know, you might be thinking of my ex but no, this boy isn't my ex)
One thing to say, thanks. For what you've done until now (: I'm talking about good things now. Really glad and happy to know you. Wish you're not one of the jerks. I............okay hold the word. It's not the time to say this :p

Earphones in, volumes up. Automatically, Unintended by Muse just played when I shuffle my songs. Feel like closing my eyes now. Yeah typing without seeing are cool, isn't it?

Good night.

"Unintended-Muse"


You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before


First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you


You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before


I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before


Before you

Jar of Hearts

Well, hello.
I kinda wasting my tears the whole night. But it doesn't make me feel better this morning.
Call me stupid girl or whatever. I just wanna be heartless, you know? So then I won't ever be broken by any relationship in this age.
Here, make it straight. Thanks for still reading this stupid post by the way :p

"I just want to be loved",
This words may say everything that teenagers need now. Just like me now. But I've promised to myself to not ever fall again with boys until the time.

But there's kinda one boy who never left my mind. Just appear like ghost. I just want to start a new life. Well, I don't hate him. I miss everything we used to be. As a friend, we still can chat, talk things and my more. But why does he choose to stop? Do you feel like you're annoyed me? No, you're not.

Well, it is true that after broke up, take really long time to ever be friends again each other. Must admit it. Please someone tell me what to do? :(

"Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri"


No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most


I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time


[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?


I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms


I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time


[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?


Dear, It took so long just to feel all right
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all


[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all


Who do you think you are?


Who do you think you are?


Who do you think you are?

We found love in a hopeless place :)

Unrequited love, here we go.

She's not a playgirl, not a player
Just a girl, just a dreamer
Wishing for love that won't ever grow
Never figure out how to show

As time goes by I realize
Deep inside her heart, she cries
Try to fixing the broken pieces there
While her love go wandering to somewhere

She fake smiles to make him believe
That she's strong enough to love and live

Turn around, girl, turn around
Do you hear I'm making this song?
You're not the only one who stuck in pain
Follow me, let's dance in the rain

Turn around, girl, turn around
'Cause I never know how to sing this song
With my love for you stuck deep inside
Just wishing one day you would realize

She gets closer to him, fearless
Her moves make me so speechless
I want to tell the truth but I'm afraid
Our togetherness would turn out to be a fight

I give my best to help her
Even if she'd never realize my true feelings
And finally she broke again
Broke into more pieces she can't explain

She fakes another smile to make him believe
That she's strong enough to love and live

Turn around, girl, turn around
Do you hear I'm making this song?
You're not the only one who stuck in pain
Come with me, dance in the rain

Turn around, girl, turn around
'Cause I never know how to sing this song
With my love for you stuck deep inside
Just wishing one day you would realize

She keeps saying that she's alone
While I'm here with her in this town
I listen to her dreams, wipe her tears
While she cries and tell me about her fears
She can't forget him, yes I know
Every time she say it, I'm such a broken vow
But once more time girl
Please, turn around

Turn around, girl, turn around
Do you know how painful is this song?
You're not the only one who stuck in pain
Come with me, dance in the rain

Turn around, girl, turn around
'Cause I know how painful is this song
My love for you still stuck deep inside

It will always there so we won't have a fight

Turn around, just once maybe?
Turn around and let your heart free
Turn around and finally you'll see
Turn around, you won't be alone with me

P.S this is a lyric created by me, titled "Turn Around". Gonna compose the melodies in this holiday maybe :) I'll upload the recording of the melodies if m sure enough haha. Still a rookie at this thing.

Enjoy reading by the way!
(You could change 'her' 'she' into 'him' 'his' and 'he' ;)

"I want him, but I'm too shy"

So this is a sad story I found from tumblr. Check this out:

10th Grade:
As I sat there in English class..
I stared at the girl next to me.

She is my so called "bestfriend"
I stared at her long silky hair, and wished she was mine.

But she didn't notice me like that and I knew it.

After class..
She walked up to me and asked me for the notes she has missed the day before and handed them to her.

She said "THANKS" and gave me a kiss on the cheek :)

11th grade:
The phone rang..
On the other end, it was her.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over..
Because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.

As I sat next to her on the sofa,
I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.

After two hours..
One Drew Barrymore movie and three bags of chips
She decided to go to sleep

She looked at me and said "thanks"
And gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Senior year:
The day before prom..
She walked to my locker,
"He's not going to go well, I didn't have a date."

And in 7th grade..
We made a promise that if neither of us had dates. We would go together just as Bestfriends..
So we did

Prom Night..
After everything was over, I was standing at her front doorstep.
I stared at her as she smiled at me and wished she was mine.

Then she said,
"I had the best time, thanks"
And gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Graduation Day:
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
It was graduation day.

I watched her as she floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.

I wanted her to be mine but she didn't notice me like that and I knew it.

Before everyone went home,
She came to me with her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her.

Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said,
"You're my bestfriend, thanks"
And she gave me a kiss on the cheek.

A few years later:
Now I'm sitting in the pews of the church.
My bestfriend is getting married now.

I watched her say "I do",
And drive off to her new life, married to another man.

But before she drove away, she came to me and said,
"You came, thanks"
And she gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Funeral:
She died of cancer few years later.
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my bestfriend.

After the service..
Her mom came to me and said,
"She wants you to keep this"
..It's her highschool diary.

I read a diary entry she had wrote in our highschool years.

This is what I read:
"I stare at him, wishing he was mine. But he doesn't notice me like that and I know it.

I want to tell him..
I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends.

I LOVE HIM but I'm just too shy and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me. And I wish I did too"

..I thought to myself and cried.



-p.s: sooo after reading this, yeah kinda teary :') fight for your love, find the perfect time, enjoy every moment and God bless you!-