The Story of Us

So there's this Taylor Swift song that make me feel kinda awkward. Seems like she was stealing my diary. This lyric is so me, here's the lyric:


I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the lucky ones."
I used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to fall-out.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I can't break through.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should've held me.

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now.
And we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate 'cause we're going down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

The end. 


YEAH SOOO..
Thanks a lot Tay, this is really me. I just dunno what to say now. Maybe people will see how cheerful I am now. But, seriously when I'm quiet, thousand things comes through my mind. I'm enough of pointless teenage relationship drama. Time to take a full rest from all of these. I just wanna focused on everything I do, but every single little thing keep making me remember him lately. 
And now I feel kinda in love with this 2 boys (whatever, call me a playgirl, bruh? :P)
And stupidly-yet-childishly I dunno is it real love or just another crush? I seriously dunno the difference between like, love and admire.
You may think that fixing my heart is as easy as I laugh everyday at class. Remember, you can never really fix a broken heart. Gather all of the pieces and heal up the wounds? Takes time, longer than our ex does.
I'm just afraid if I open my heart, I will be hurt with the same mess and mistakes all over again.


My last message to dude(s) out there that maybe doesn't even know my blog (I won't tell them haha)


So, to someone out there who's trying to chasing the new girl haha, good luck dude. Just want you to now, I'm totally fine. Go, chase your love, find someone who can give you more than I gave to you. Chase your dream, I'm still your friend, we can chat, right? :) You're the best thing that ever been mine. 238 :')


And another dude who stressed out, you're smart enough to know the best for you. Even if we barely talk now, I just wanna say sorry if I ever hurt you knowingly or unknowingly. Good luck. Go get good scores. Don't be too selfish and don't make everything in a rush :) take care! Thanks for bitter-sweet 6 months without real-ationship :)


Dear, cute-face dude. I like your face. A-lot. Don't care if one day you ever read this haha. You're just nothing more than a dream, your smile isn't for me. We just chat once, remember? Good luck for the final exam before you go to University in next year! Always hope the best for ya, secret admirer here :P


Last but not least,
to a dude out there that probably read this, open your eyes, and listen to "You belong with me- Taylor Swift" song. It really tells my feeling now. Good luck and see ya!


-Mich-