Addicted

This is weird.

I don't even know when I have to move, to hold, to keep or to stay. Someone please tell me how to :(

"Life makes love look hard"

So long dear blog hehey :)
Back again with craziness, vacant stares and empty heart throughout this week and closer to final test. 


I'm so dead.


Problems never bored to come over and over again. So here are some things that make me pissed off:


1. Hey ex(s), or should I call both of ya jerks? Haha. Have a life, you two are totally different  jerks. Thankfully I'm single now. Teehee


2. Truth does hurts. God already write our story. Maybe I can only live, for now


3. Being single, I repeat, BEING SINGLE, is not as easy as you think. Once you thought it as freedom but admit it, all you see are happy couples. That feeling to be loved may appear whenever you let yourself empty. So, live for today and start to think positive. Close your eyes, close your ears and close your mouth. Just fake a smile :) fake it til you make it


4. One says "eating is such a workout". Heckyeah, Patrick Star, you right. By that quotes, I'm terribly eat too much now. Can you tell me how to stop, eh? :s


And and and


I just watched Breaking Dawn last friday night(yeah we dance on tabletops, uh whatever)
AMAZING MOVIE, very recommended. Uhm but I watch it with my mom. *pokerface* and when the scene goes to "not-for-my-old-scene", I'm just like trying to look busy while my mom staring.....yeah staring. Weird and awkward moment.


But yeaaah the wedding scene :') so ouch. Here's a pic of the scene

Ouch, Ed :) you look gorgeous

Eh ada si ganteng :* aaaa






















so to close this super random post, I wanna tell you all something


"Life makes love look hard"
that's the title of this post.
Live your life with love. Love was born to be nothing but simple and happy. 
Love is something you can be happy of,
something you can share of,
something you can smile of,
something that can build you,
something that can cheer you,
something to hold on,
something to feel, not to think,
something that should be thankful in this life,
something to be sacrificed,
something built to last,
something to believe.


Like just Rihanna says these days "we found love in a hopeless place" :)


keep believing! no matter how much you've been hurt.
At first, God will lead you into the wrong person that don't even worth your smile or your precious tears.
By one mistake, you'll realize if it's not love or only admiring.
LOVE and ADMIRING are totally different
make sure you've made a right decision in your life.
The only matter is you really want to be loved.
Try to love :) let it all flows. If you can't forget it then don't. Time will answer which girl/boy that worth fighting for. Or follow me to be single ;) haha


Life makes love look hard? Not anymore :)


-Mich-

The Story of Us

So there's this Taylor Swift song that make me feel kinda awkward. Seems like she was stealing my diary. This lyric is so me, here's the lyric:


I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us,
How we met and the sparks flew instantly,
People would say, "They're the lucky ones."
I used to know my place was a spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat,
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on.

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to fall-out.
So many things that I wish you knew,
So many walls that I can't break through.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

Next chapter.

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy,
And you're doing your best to avoid me.
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us,
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here,
But you held your pride like you should've held me.

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how,
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest,
Of who can act like they care less,
But I liked it better when you were on my side.
The battle's in your hands now,
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight.
So many things that you wished I knew,
But the story of us might be ending soon.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate when it all broke down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now.
And we're not speaking,
And I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah?
I don't know what to say, since the twist of fate 'cause we're going down,
And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

The end. 


YEAH SOOO..
Thanks a lot Tay, this is really me. I just dunno what to say now. Maybe people will see how cheerful I am now. But, seriously when I'm quiet, thousand things comes through my mind. I'm enough of pointless teenage relationship drama. Time to take a full rest from all of these. I just wanna focused on everything I do, but every single little thing keep making me remember him lately. 
And now I feel kinda in love with this 2 boys (whatever, call me a playgirl, bruh? :P)
And stupidly-yet-childishly I dunno is it real love or just another crush? I seriously dunno the difference between like, love and admire.
You may think that fixing my heart is as easy as I laugh everyday at class. Remember, you can never really fix a broken heart. Gather all of the pieces and heal up the wounds? Takes time, longer than our ex does.
I'm just afraid if I open my heart, I will be hurt with the same mess and mistakes all over again.


My last message to dude(s) out there that maybe doesn't even know my blog (I won't tell them haha)


So, to someone out there who's trying to chasing the new girl haha, good luck dude. Just want you to now, I'm totally fine. Go, chase your love, find someone who can give you more than I gave to you. Chase your dream, I'm still your friend, we can chat, right? :) You're the best thing that ever been mine. 238 :')


And another dude who stressed out, you're smart enough to know the best for you. Even if we barely talk now, I just wanna say sorry if I ever hurt you knowingly or unknowingly. Good luck. Go get good scores. Don't be too selfish and don't make everything in a rush :) take care! Thanks for bitter-sweet 6 months without real-ationship :)


Dear, cute-face dude. I like your face. A-lot. Don't care if one day you ever read this haha. You're just nothing more than a dream, your smile isn't for me. We just chat once, remember? Good luck for the final exam before you go to University in next year! Always hope the best for ya, secret admirer here :P


Last but not least,
to a dude out there that probably read this, open your eyes, and listen to "You belong with me- Taylor Swift" song. It really tells my feeling now. Good luck and see ya!


-Mich-

First Post

Well, then people.
This is my newest blog. I'm in the mood of blogging just like now.
Blogging must be full of fun-ness yet full of memories.
No, you won't be my own diary, bloggy ;p
But I'm gonna share some post here that really describe my stories.
So then, happy reading! Enjoy 

Keep da faith ;)


-Mich-